Working Full Time in all aspects of my life has molded me into the person I am today. Wearing many hats can become overwhelming when I cannot find time for my hats. When I cannot find the time it's because I am distracted by other things that are not of importance. My goal is to minimize distractions and focus on managing time for all the hats I wear especially because I am a full time mother, wife, employee, and freelance model.
As a mother I tend to forget about myself because I am so focused on providing for my son. I have a 4 year old and many mothers know young chidren requires a lot of attention. My heart feels bad sometimes because he wants my attention 24/7 and I am unable to do that. I work 8 hours a day and when I get home its time for my son to go to bed. On top of that, I have to do house chores which God knows I dread doing when I come home from work. I have managed to do little at a time each day so the house chores are not piled up for the weekend. By doing a little everyday has aloud me to spend sometime with my son each day. I dont feel like I have a enough time for him but I do what I can and eventually I will be able to mangage more time for him when something else gives such as house chores, lol. I truly would love to have a maid, it would help so much.
As a wife, I try but its hard to manage a marriage that doesnt feel like a marrige. I tend to put my marriage on the back burner occasionally and I know that it is not right. Ever since our son was born, my husband and I have grown apart and has not made the effort to have time for each other and that is because the focus is...our son. My husband is a great father but we both lack in tending to each other. Whether its going out for 2 hours a week without our son would be ideal to catchup on our love for one another. But distractions have taken over and Im not sure how we are going to make it. My husband is a stay home dad and he takes care of our son when I am at work. Daddy Daycare is a lot of work but at least he gets to spend time with our son, teaching him, and enjoy the precious moments that I miss. Father and Son is inseparable, so I get neglected, needless to say but it's hard being a parent, married, and working, that is the ugly truth for me. I always tell my husband, "when our son gets older and make friends, he will have his own life and where will that leave us"? With That said, I focus more on providing for my family by working at my job as a banker and on my career as a freelance model.
My job as a banker is stressful but yet gratifying because I get to help people succeed financially. Finances is something that a lot of people do not like to talk about because they lack the resources and education that comes with finances such as saving, managing, retiring, credit etc. The list is long but I help people with all of that. I help them understand by explaining and sharing my experiences that help me overcome the challenges of all aspects of finances. Im not perfect in my finances but I understand it and I know how to educate myself on what I dont know by taking classes and reading. My job requires me to do so, through training especially because of all the changes this year of 2020. This year has been challenging for many and because of Covid-19 my job has not been quite the same. Managing my job and managing time at my job has really taken the lead on everything. I have to set appointments, I have to clean after every customer, I have to pay attention to how many people we let in the building, wear a mask, stand six feet away, so forth and so on. After all of that, I still manage to have time to focus on my career.
I love my family and my family is my "WHY"! They are my reason, and I am destine to succeed at my career as a freelance model. It is my passion and it makes me extremely happy. I love to create art through entertaining, modeling, advertising, branding, marketing etc. You name it, I love to create! I love fashion, hair, makeup, nails, etc. Anything that has to do with beauty I am all for creating. As I have mentioned in my previous blogs, I was a licensed cosmetologist for over 15 years and I loved it but I wasnt making enough money to have the lifestyle I have now. Also, I worked with an agency when I was 25 and I learned a lot on the do's and dont's. But now, this freelance modeling career I have created for myself takes a lot of time and effort. I have to manage time for seeking opportunities, otherwise I will not succeed in accomplishing my goals. I have so much to learn and so much to do because I am practically doing my own thing and being my own agent. I have yet to land any jobs because I am barely putting myself back out there but next year I feel is going to be different.
Managing time for all the hats I have to wear is a fear that I will overcome because I will always think of my "WHY." My family is my "WHY" and they keep me motivated to continue on and not let fear stop me from succeeding. I am determine to set an example for my son because if I dont, I will feel as if I have failed him and that is not an option for me. I truly believe my family deserves to have success and my motivation and determination is going to create success for my family.